Do you what it’s like, to feel as though your not allowed to do this? To feel as though this is a life experience you will never know. Never feel. And yet you see it every day. When you go out, when you turn on the TV, when you watch a movie. There it is. Showing how easy is it should be. Yet nobody has ever tried, nobody has ever really wanted to. All I get told, and shown, is that it will never happen … because nobody wants to share this with me …
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or been kissed, touched, etc, they react in a way that irks me. They say that they’re jealous, that they wish they were in my shoes. That they wish they hadn’t had the relationships they had. No. No you don’t at all. You can’t possibly wish to be alone for as long as I have when you know what it feels like to love someone and to be loved back. I don’t know what that feels like and I sure as hell want to know that feeling. More than anything.
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It’s a cold, rainy, autumn night. It would be nice to have someone to go and see Star Trek with. We could get popcorn. Then after the movie, we could get dinner, or just go to a cafe, and talk about anything while we watch the rain fall in the dark.
Yeah. That would be nice ….
Wish there was some way to make contact with people. Some where I could fit in. Someone I could have a connection with.
But I don’t know where that place is. Or if that person even exists. And I’m all out of ideas of where to try.
Even writing this feels like putting a note in to a bottle, throwing it in to the ocean, and hoping that someone will find it. But knowing deep down, that it will just float around, lost and forgotten, forever ….
When you realise that everyone you’ve ever loved has someone to hold them, to cuddle them, to be with them, and to love them.
But your alone. Wrapping blankets around you to find some warmth, and only with photos of strangers to fantasise about any affection …
No. I don’t deny anyone the chance to be loved and happy.
I just wonder when will someone ever really like me enough to be with me too ….
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Autumn Sunset. Although I can take photos of it, these are the small moments that I long to share with someone. To watch this while holding hands, or having our arms around in each other in a warm cuddle. But now, while you can see what I saw, you can’t feel that moment. It has gone forever …
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